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Feeling a little sheepish right about now. Like that emoticon where you press :$

Love to all, ♥

This morning, I made a cake. It is chocolate, with chocolate cream. So a chocolate cake.
It will be devoured at 4. But not the whole thing, because that would be disgusting.

I had a truly bizzaro dream last night. I was sitting in English, next to the wall on the front row and Laura on the other side, and Mrs Dean was having a massive go at us, and I looked down and on the table was a photo of a massive sleeping panda surrounded by like, a million baby sleeping pandas and I burst into tears and Mrs Dean yelled some more. I went into the back playground bit, near the gazebo, and ended up somehow in my back garden, at the very bottom, where someone had built a swimming pool. Someone had filled it with really dirty brown water and there were four ducks swimming in it and everyone was like 'thank God someone made this pool so beautiful' and I was like 'what are you talking about? It's disgusting and full of brown water and ducks' but I was ignored and then I went for a swim. The next thing that happened was that I woke up in our veranda, and I was holding a new born baby. I went out onto the patch of grass in front of the veranda and it started raining really heavily and I died.

Then I woke up and really needed to pee.

I don't know what happened to the baby.

Anyway, it's Saturday and I have an English essay or something to do and I don't think it has anything to do with pandas. Also, my jawline really hurts for no reason like after you blow up a balloon and it aches and you don't know why.

This is a rare midweek post. In which I complain and moan and stress and ponder. Nothing changes.

UCAS is a bitch, end of. I mean, come on, I spent a good 2 and bit hours this morning writing 5 moderate/short paragraphs attempting to make myself sound interesting, when really all I achieved was a sense that I've just been wasting my time and that I'm generally going to have to pull off some kind of miracle, because as far as I can see...this year really isn't going to go well. You would not believe how difficult it is to make yourself sound interesting whilst writing about why you want to do a course in Film and Television Studies. If anything, I just came across as a lazy slob who spends all their time watching movies and stuff and won't go out and get a job or any kind of experience.

Oh wait. That is me. Joy of bloody joys.

And I also discoverd today there is no way in hell of hells that I'll get on the Kings College course (which looked so bloody amazing) because my predicted grades aren't good enough. For a while, I'd deluded myself into thinking that maybe I could have got AAB if I'd really tried. Clearly now, this won't happen.

On top of all this (by the way, kudos if you're still reading) due to other problems with grades/exams of times gone by, my choices of Universities really isn't very large. It looks at the moment like Aberystwyth or nothing. How on Earth I'm going to come up with 4 more is beyond me, it really is.

If I could just get myself sorted out, or if someone would just sit down and go through this whole thing with me (and I would go to Mrs Dean but everytime I try and talk to her, she just brushes me off) it would be muchos appreciated. And no offence to anyone, but I need an adult who's done it all fairly recently.

Cocking hell.

In other news, I'm having strange cravings for porridge and spaghetti bolognese (not together). Buffy is marvellous and I'm enjoying it very much. And tomorrow I have to be in first thing in order to rehearse music to movement so I can look even more of a plonk when we perform in Drama. AND I've got a practice test in Media.

Way-wait for it-Hay.

Good afternoon, campers. Here is the What-Happened-In-Jane's-Week blog.
Read, laugh, cry, hate, die, reborn, cow, grass, milk, burger.

So. This week has been okay, setting itself up for next week which I imagine will go tits up by day one.

Drama was a bit poo this week. As much as I want to enjoy what we are doing, to be honest, there's nothing that we've done that really makes me go - Oh Yeah, That Was Lolz Like. I mean, Lysistrata is funny and Twelfth Night is good and all...but I'm not having a laugh like I did last year. Which is a shame I guess. Anyway I'm 99% sure that next week is also going to be uber-pants due to major lack of organisation and the fact I suck at anything that involves music, movement or in fact, music to movement.
If people want to see a rythmically challenged girl rolling around on the floor at the back of the stage to hippie music, they'd go and see Michelle McManus slip over a turd in a health food store.

English is fabbo, I'm loving it. Dracula is bon and a laugh and basically we've deduced that Drackles only wants Harker as a bumchum and is jealous of the screeching baby munching harpees that try and bonk him in the night. Also, Mina's friend Lucy is a slut. Macbeth is my favourite lesson of the week, no challenge. On Wednesday we watched some bizarre interview with an actress who played a witch and in her play they were all on roller blades. Then we watched 'Macbeth on the Estate' featuring some incredibly unfortunate looking children and Ray Winstone in shorts.

Media seems to be a bit slow getting going this year. It's me and one other guy who do any of the essays set and one of the girls in my class claims to have no idea who Stephen Fry is. I know right? I have some good ideas about my coursework though...I just want to get going with it.

I bought some bangin' new headphones on Wednesday, although they made watching the episode of Buffy with the creepy demon in the hospital at 11 last night a lot more freaky. I finally have the Empire magazine for this month (I am disgusted at myself for not getting it sooner) and it's obviously brillo.

Liz's party on Tuesday!
I have Funky Town by Lipps Inc stuck in my head!

Oh, and thanks to all for the feedback on Trestle: A Journey. It's muchos appreciated. I just got off the phone with the Academy and they say we deffo have a shot at the Oscars next year. So you know, I'd better start writing a speech and picking a posh frock.

Trestle: A Journey from Jane Jardine on Vimeo.

What with the Caring is Sharing thing I did last week, I haven't done any actual blogging about my first week back at school. So here it is.

It was actually quite a lot of fun. I'm not sure at this point in time how long this will last, but for now I'm having a nice time being back. It certainly beats being at home at a loss of what to do.

This week has been pretty successful, and fairly productive.

In Drama I got my directorial debut when my group for Drama chose my edit of Lysistrata to perform. It was great, I liked being the director. I think it went quite well, although Ben's accent was a bit hilariously dodgy and Melissa had the best part of 20 minutes to get to grips with what she had to do. The truth will out on Monday when I get feedback.

In English Lit., we are looking at Dracula with Mrs Dean and Laura, Zanny and I have put together the most excellent of all Gothic posters for Monday's lesson. It's in the shape of a coffin, has fake blood and a picture of Dracula bursting out of the centre of it. I'll get a picture if I can. Plus, in Wednesday's lessons Mrs Masters looks like a brilliant teacher, AND we're doing Macbeth, my favourite play with her. She is even letting us bring in biscuits and stuff to keep us merry. On Wednesday we watched a documentary with Tony Robinson and then drew pictures of witches. I'm really looking forward to English this year.

In Media, I have two new teachers. I was a bit apprehensive, but Miss Samuels is really nice and Miss Ashton seems decent too. Plus, my coursework seems to have a new direction to go in, and I'm itching to get started because at least now I have some ideas about what I'm doing for the practical, and it should look pretty fine when I've done it.

In other news, I'm debating doing an English retake. I think I should, but I'll have to re-revise all the stuff from last year, and I could always do worse in the exam. The deadline is next week. I might have to talk with Mrs Dean about it and see if I could get some extra help or something.

And we have a new canteen at school and it's marvellous. It's a finger print scan system (very X-Men) and they are open all day so we can go and get coffee during free periods and the food is so much better. I had a bit of chocolate and beetroot brownie and it was SO nice. They also do rasperry jelly, duck and plum sauce, sandwiches on bloomer bread etc. etc.

I guess it's just nice to see everyone again. I have some work to do this weekend, but I'll probably do that tomorrow. Writing up notes from Media and read more of Dracula and stuff. Thanks to Anne for letting me borrow season one of Buffy the Vampire Slayer from her. And kudos to Laura for letting me eat loads of her food this week.

I'M OFF TO GET MY HAIR CUT NOW, BYE!

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Day 6: WHATEVER TICKLES YOUR FANCY

Today, I give you...

The freshly made batch of cookies I baked earlier. Half are cinammon and the other half are peanut butter. I doubt they'll be around for long in this house.



AND

Our 2 kitties playing together. Well, Ruddles playing and Dark Star watching him as if he's a complete nonce.
Which he is.



At least she's not trying to slash his eyes out as she usually is.

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Day 6: A QUOTE

This was difficult. I practically have a whole folder on my laptop dedicated to quotes. So you have to know that this isn't the best, or the most interesting...but it's one of my favourite.

Sometimes you have to see fear and head for it and you have to do exactly what would be considered entirely inappropriate socially, personally in relationships and with the world at large in order to make it where you're supposed to go.There's somewhere you're supposed to go and if you get quiet enought, you'll make it.

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Day 5: A YOUTUBE CLIP

I'm going to be cheeky. I don't care. I'm really loving this show after having a big re-watch.
This next series looks awesome!



2 weeks away, apparently :)

Countdown!
(stolen from Katie)

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now.
10. How can you possibly show no care for anyone else and not feel bad about it? Not even a little bit?
9. I would do it, but I'm too scared of what other people would say.
8. I really like you, but I hate how you don't try and still do so well.
7. I like you because you remind me of Prince Arthur from the BBC's 'Merlin'.
6. I was unbelievably happy when I found out about your choice.
5. Please don't cut your hair, it looks marvellous as it is.
4. Thanks for remembering.
3. I appreciate everything you do for me. More than you think.
2. You're the best outlet I have.
1. I wish I could show you, and not be afraid of how you'd react.

NINE things about yourself.
9. Sometimes I watch the same film every night of the week.
8. When I listen to soundtracks, I always think of something I could film to go with it.
7. I strongly suspect I've picked the wrong thing to do for my Media coursework.
6. I prefer to walk alone.
5. I read a lot of fanfiction.
4. I choose the ones I have no chance with.
3. I feel like a hypocrite about certain subjects. And not the ones you'd expect.
2. I plan arguments and retorts in my head, but I never, ever say them.
1. I've been doing Media for a whole year and I still sit at the back and don't speak to people. I LOVE it!

EIGHT ways to win your heart.
8. Dress well. I love trainers with low slung jeans and grey/black/white t-shirts.
7. Don't look at me like I'm wrong.
6. Don't freak out when you see.
5. Have great hair.
4. Take me to the Waffle House.
3. Like the same films as me.
2. Make me coffee, just the way I like it.
1. Be a bit lazy, so I don't feel self-concious when I am.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot.
7. School.
6. Money.
5. Football.
4. My weight.
3. My body.
2. Those three I can't decide between.
1. Whether my kwitty is actually happy about the kwitten.

SIX things you do before you fall asleep?
6. Put on my night uniform.
5. Write my diary.
4. Browse, then turn my laptop off.
3. Turn my radio on, but very low.
2. Pull my pillows down.
1. Stick my feet out.

FIVE people who mean a lot to you at the moment.
1. Kwitty.
2. Laura.
3. Katie.
4. Them, although they don't know.
5. The man who said it would sort itself out soon.

FOUR things you see right now.
4. A cinema ticket.
3. School stuff.
2. The score from 'Moon'.
1. My iPod.

THREE songs that you listen to often.
3. Woad to Ruin - Hans Zimmer
2. Sacrifice - Clint Mansell
1. Fire - Kasabian

TWO things you want to do before you die.
1. Go to America.
2. Do something memorable.

ONE confession.
1. I'm pretty sure that I've blown it completely out of proportion, but I can't seem to stop.

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Day 4: A SITE

I'm going to recommend Twitter.

I admit, I use Twitter so I can keep up with what's going on with Iron Man 2 stuff, and whats going into the next Empire magazine, and what's happening in the Chris Moyles show studio. I don't know, it's just really addictive and I like it.

http://twitter.com/

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Day 3: A BOOK/EBOOK/FANFIC

I've read quite a few books this holiday, and the majority were not the ones we were supposed to read. So while Dracula and Frankenstein sit quietly on my desk, and Anne Perry remains a couple of chapters in, I'm going to write about how great a book called The Time Traveler's Wife is.

I bought it to take on holiday, and I started reading it straight after The Wasp Factory because I figured I'd need something a little more light hearted after the foul ending of TWF.

I was a bit wrong about the light hearted thing. Yes, there were points that were funny, and made you think, and made you go all gooey inside, but for the most part, the undeniable sense that this love story was going to have a horrifically tragic ending was unavoidable. And good Lord, it was sad. In my opinion, sadder than The Kite Runner. Which was heartbreaking for other reasons, but heartbreaking all the same.

But seriously, if you haven't read this book yet, read it soon. And I advise you not to see the film before you've read the book. They cut so much out of the book for the film, and although the film was alright, and depressing, the book had much more character development and storyline so you really felt the punch in the stomach at the end.

I did anyway.

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Day 2: A PICTURE

I really like this photo because it was taken at Trestle before a performance of Much Ado, and even though it was a bit pants, backstage was great fun. I don't know why it's blurry, but I like it the way it is.

We all look sort of ridiculous. I don't know, I just like it.

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Day 1: A SONG

Ok, so this is going to be a bit difficult because I like a lot of songs. Initially I thought 'Hey, I'll choose something from the Moon score'. And then I realised that wouldn't work because I've only just got it so it wouldn't really be fair on all the other good bits of music I have. I thought about including something from the Serenity soundtrack, because it's so good, or something from Hans Zimmer.

Then I thought maybe I should choose something with lyrics. I thought of several songs, from lots of different styles. I went from Nine Inch Nails to Take That and I still couldn't really choose anything.

And then I remembered this song, which I kind of discovered by accident a while back. It is one of my most played, and I chose it in Bath as one of my favourite songs as well. It's a mix of all the good things, and you'll find it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ty_xbwoY-kU&feature=fvw